. g u m b i r a .

ntahla.ak gumbira kah.?ekeke.
lately ak x bape gumbira rsnyeh.heh.
but kite prlu gumbira.
so ak gumbira bler lakukan aktiviti brikut.
cntohnye nyanyi dlm bilik air.
haha.xdek ah.
cam makan banyak2.haha.
ntahla.idup nie.bynk mende nk kene gumbira.
coz kalo xgumbira.make kite xgumbira.
means biler xgumbira.
kiter otomatiknye akan xgumbirakn org laen gak.
membe2 sekeliling n so on.
walaopon kite sdeyh2 dlm hati,
jgn la show off sgt.coz muke yg xgumbira.
leh xgumbirakn prg2 yg kite hargai.
kdg2 kite xsdae sume tuh.
sbb kite selfish kowt.ntah la.
idup nie.mmg kene yakin diri.
means x d efek oleh gguan negatif.
huhu.but.kene gak pikir utk org laen.
u know wut i mean aite.
heh.nie lebeyh utk peringatan diri jek.
ak taw ak lately xbape suke snyum.huhu.
walaopun gelak cam setan maseh ade.
hehe.kawan2.sorie yek.
kalo sekali smggu ade muke toye ak wat kt bilik.
im soori k.hehe.ak sayaang korunk sgt2.
thx evry1.lap u all.wahihik.
idup kene gumbira la pisey!!!
tata^^

-i am me no matter what-

. t i r e d .

wagh.im tired.s0o tired.help.

i havent finish the assignment yet though.

aghh.!!

the moral of the story.

don't wait till tomorrow3..and tomorrow to settle your homeworks.

sigh~

-i am me no matter what-

. T h a t g u y .

i miss dat guy.

eventhough he has his pride.

of showing his love to me.

but i know.

deep down inside.

i mean a lot to him.

i miss that guy.

there were times he scolded me badly.

that i cried so hard and wept alone.

but i know.

it's becoz that he cares for me.

i miss that guy.

the one whom i respect much.

the one who taught me what life is.

the one with a very big heart.

the one who cope his problem well.

even when losing his other half.

i really2 miss that guy.

the person whom i call dad..

dad,

adek miss u s0o much..

i'm sorry for everything i've done.

i'm sorry for every pain i gave you.

i'm sorry.

i never mean to hurt you.

it's just that losing m0m really 'cause me pain.

i'm sorry for not telling you that often that i love you s0o much.

i'm sorry that you seldomly heard my laughs and see my smiles.

i'm sorry for the mistakes i've done..

since m0m left us.

i've become numb when i'm dealing with you.

i don't know why.

it's not that i hate you.

i just..i don't know.

eventhough you show me no tears.

i know deep down inside i hurt you a lot.

with this big head and blank face i showed you all this while.

__________________________________________________________

dad.
i'm sorry.
really2 sorry.
but thanks.
for being there for me.
all the time.
and always.

love u,
a. d. e. k.

-i am me no matter what-

. l i f e .

have you ever ask yourself, what life is about?

i do.

but i never quite get the good answer to the question.

sigh~

well, every and each living person on earth has different view

on what life portrays to them.

me too.

life is a journey to discover.

some may see it as a hard time.

while some may be enjoying life to the fullest.

24/7 we think and think about our life.

on how to upgrade it, how to get famous,

how to get rich, and everything is just on

how to get better in our own diction of life.

the inner life is a journey.

a journey for us to discover.

just by thinking over and over again,

we won't be doing any changes at all.

(well, but it's good to brainstorming=)

so then, think again.haha.

whether we are making any progress at all just by thinking.

then, do something for good changes.

take note that life is precious.

don't waste it.

be happy, enjoy life, and take responsibility well.

you'll find true happiness, peace, love and joy.

-i am me no matter what-

. t e s t .

i hate test..aghh..i never ever like exam..

never planning of liking them in the future

too..haha..

except for english paper..haha..

the picture here show the exam week date..

aghh..haha..but the real reason i took this picture,

is to remember those breaks..wakaka..

last week i got electrical fundamental..

then last 2 days i got static..

this week..there'll be engineering drawing and automation..

sigh..pliss3..no more test..

abu said test and examination is made to turn a normal person into a mad person..haha..

teacher gave out test=student got the madness..

hak2..whatever..pisey..go study laa...

huhu..i'm not a good student though..

i'm a lazy person..last minute study is the best for me..
haha..then i'll get very frustrated when i can' give out good answer..

haha..but just for a while..

after a deep sleep (the period is depending on how frust i am after the test)..

i'll be fine..and then..the recycle of life goes on..

then i'll have another test..get frustrated and sleep..

wakaka..try..it's good..huhu..a past is a past..

if you can't change your attitude..

then, just accept the fact that life's like that..hua3..

so, then..make good plans and settle yourself well..

haha..am i going to change??

well, we'll see about that..

ciao..

eh, wait..forgot to tell you..

i am now doing my first year of bachelor in mechatronics engineering technology

at unikl malaysia france institute..

it will be for 4 years..huhu..daaa..daaa..daa...

wagh..scary..it's tough..and will be a lo tougher..hurm...

p/s: mandarin vocabs to memorize..

nee how ma? - how are you?

wo i nee - i love you

mao - cat

-i am me no matter what-

..photography..

yeep..i am really into it right now..

people see life in different perspective..

and so do i..

with a good camera along..

i think i understand life better..

huhu..you know..life is good..

yep!!!..enjoy..and treasure it well..

-i am me no matter what-

..ramadhan.. [known as da fasting month]

the word itself give a thousand meaning..
i mean, to me..hehe..lots and lots of meaning..
there are pain..happiness..gratefulness..hunger..and so on..
last year..last 2 years..last 3 years..well, it has been such a disaster to me..
(everything after mom left us..i have become so stupid)
yup..that's the word..disastrous...huhu..i don't even enjoy celebrating it..
compared to those good old days i had when i was little..
naah..forget about all that..huhu..i have changed..yep..i am who i am now!!

this year, i celebrated it with lots and lots of joy an laughter..
i am really grateful for having the chances to meet this month..again..
huhu..wawawawa..i just can't express my feeling of how happy i am..
to still be living on earth..still alive and kicking and so on..
and enjoying this month..the great2 month..

i recite lots and lots of the holy Quran..alhamdulillah..
looking forward to khatam..huhu..i am already reciting juz'13..
but right now i am not in the condition of fasting, praying and reciting..
huhu..so sad..but i was the one who asked Him to get in this condition
in the range of 11-19th ramadhan only..and gratefully..
it falls on the date 11th..haha..ya Allah..thanks so much..love You!!

why i am asking it to be that way..is because i really2 want to end

my ramadhan with lots and lots of ibadah..really..
even right now i felt soo....bad of not having the chances to perform the ibadah..
well then..just wait..hehe..thats all i can do..so envy with my friends..
they got the chances of performing lots of things to Allah the Almighty..
but not all of them take the chances pretty serious though..
i think it is about the early Islamic education from home..
thanks to daddy for being such a great father to all of us..
the guidance and all that i had from little is very2 useful..
and mommy who had left us with such spirit and good akhlak..huhu..
(miss you mommy..)
alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..

[WHAT I PLAN TO BE]

.i plan to be a nice person and pray to Allah SWT all the time.

.i plan to be a good daughter and obey my parents.

.i plan to be an excellent student and pass with flying colours.

.i plan to be a succeed entrepreneur in the business world.

.i plan to be a smart engineer and create useful things.

.i plan to be a responsible wife and loyal to my husband.

.i plan to be a loving mother and care about my children well.

.i plan to be an important person ever n make changes to the world.

-i am me no matter what-

.I. .A.M. .B.A.C.K.

haha..here i am..

i think i am me again..*winks*

with a new resolutions await..

with a new me (currently upgrading myself..) going to be..

i think i could see a lot of things for my future ahead..

i think so la..huhu..

well, guys..and dears friends..thanks for being there for me..

mostly thanks to my family..

for giving me lot of times and many2 more lots2 lots of chances..

since mom has gone..i pretty much has suck up my life so bad..

huhu..just has realized what i have been losing all this time..

so then..thanks again..

and pliss3..always be there for me..

'cause i will never leave you guys..ever..

ya Allah..

thanks so much for grant me this precious life i don't quite deserve..

i know i'm not a good servant to You..

but i'm trying to be good all the time..

only You know everything about me..

You are the only One who always be with me..

24/7 and You are so nice to me..

You gave me a lot of chances and love..

i mean..lots of love..people spread on me..

all because of You..

thank you ya Allah..

i really love You..thanks a lot =)

-i am me no matter what-