You'll succeed eventually.
You can do this.
Forgive me of my sins from today, the days before and the days after. Protect us from the torture of hellfire. Protect us from the disaster of today, days before and days after. Dear God, may this be the greatest decision I have ever made, for the people I love, even when they themselves could not see the good in it yet. Guide me God. Don't let me went astray. Hold me God. Don't ever let me fall. Catch me God. If I fail and fell, really please catch me and put me back on the grant. Allow me to be among the humble ones. Allow me to work toward my dreams. Allow me to do what I really need to do. Grant me great health and give me time God. There's so much I want to do. There're so many hearts, souls and lives to be saved. And I really really want to do this. Help me God. Amin.
Yeah typing my prayer in an entry.
I really need to guide myself back on His path.
Did you know that the translation of the prayer you say before eating, actually includes the word "save me from the torture of hellfire"?