You just have to do what you have to do

You also have a choice.

To do what you want to do.
To do what you need to do.
To do what you're asked to do.
To do what you're obligated to do.

In the end, you just gotta do what you gotta do.

Breathe, stay alive.

Take care of your living heart.
Take care of your dying heart.

Live.
Live life to the fullest.

There are so many things to enjoy and cherish and be grateful about.

Complain. Complain all you want.
Then, think.

As long as you keep being rational.
As long as you keep coming home, you gonna be just fine.

You gonna be just fine doing what you gotta do.
Keep going.

Blood-related people in my life are super-duper important to me

Mungkin ada di antara kamu yang tidak rapat dengan adik-beradik dan sebagainya. Jadi, untuk pemberian Tuhan yang ini, aku sangat beruntung sebenarnya.

Kami tak pernah bergaduh besar. Perselisihan faham kecil itu normal, dan itu pun aku tak boleh nak ingat bila dan apa yang berlaku.

Paling sama, kami semua kalau ketawa memang gelak besar. Dan ya nafsu makan dan perut kami juga besar. Diselit dengan kebolehan rajin memasak jadi segalanya jadi begitu mudah. Lagi-lagi bila semua berkumpul. Macam raya aidilfitri yang baru lepas.

Hubungan kami ini, ialah harta peninggalan arwah mak paling syurga.

Support system

My breath was heavy. Messy life. Sleep is the only option I have. I don't even dream. I just sleep. And wake up just to sleep again. I only function when people ask something from me. To run some errands, to accompany them to shop or eat, to do whatever things for them, I live for that for months because I lost my support system. No I don't really lose it. It just decided to drift away.

I must have died a few times.

June, 2016.