Sweet little me

Suddenly I remember a memory. Or should I say forgotten memories of a small me, slipping notes under my parent's bedroom door in the night when I forgot to tell them something. Or when I forgot to kiss them good night.

I miss me.

Ponder

So I read Shak's blog. And shared the same thought on this

I think due to that reason, things get awkward when I suddenly become clumsy and my heart and mind is out of place with my friends. 

I like this reminder too by the way.
Thanks for jotting those down.


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Ada perasaan kelam yang menenggelamkan.

Kabut ribut yang melanda hati, Tuhan saja yang tahu.

I learnt a few things for the past months.
To let go of people I adore by caring less, to let go of attachments to things I have.

It's hard. And I have regrets. Must let go of the regrets too.

I just cannot letgo of my burdened destructive self.

Quoting Luna;
'I need someone who can protect me. From me.'

Semoga kita-kita lebih gigih mendekati Tuhan hendaknya.

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'I don't hate the job.
I'm just not capable of handling the pressure very well.

Pardon me for being emotional.

I don't let go of things easily.
I hate that part of me.

I state all the feelings to people I care about when I feel like saying it.
Turns out telling the truth is not the right way in some situation.

I am sorry for hurting you guys with my over thinking.
I just want things to be good.

And for moments spent to be special, not awkward.

I am such a weirdo.
Yeah I think too much again.

Sorry.

Maybe I changed. Maybe I'm too depressed it shows.
Or maybe I don't progress, hence I was left behind.

Should I die anytime soon, please remember me as someone who laugh out loud almost all the time. The cheerful one. The caring one. The one who eats a lot. The one you guys used to give a special place in your heart and mind.

Thanks.'

KUL-KBR, KBR-KUL2

Esok awal pagi balik Kelantan. Lusa tengah hari dah turun KL balik.

Bukan boleh cakap
"Wah kayanya, pergi balik satu malam sahaja."

Tapi sebab tak mampu ambil cuti Jumaat dan Isnin macam kakak dan abang-abang ipar. Sorang lagi kakak dah memang masih dalam cuti bersalin. Budak-budak pula cuti sekolah. Diorang dah balik semalam. Aku home alone dua malam. Dua-dua rumah kosong.

Kalau ambil cuti dah jadi unpaid leave. Dahla nak beli tiket balik dah lebih seratus jumlah. Kalau kena tolak gaji pula, haru. It's the best option I have.

Lagipun sibuk bebenor office aku ni. We should be glad, kan?

Projek asyik masuk. Maintenance call tak berhenti. Semua ni duit masuk. Masalah company ni cuma orang tak cukup, workload memang boleh gila kalau ambil serius. Orang lain projek tak ada, pekerja terlebih sampai kena buang orang.

I am sorry to hear those yang kena buang kerja dengan notis 24jam. Semoga rezeki kalian Tuhan gandakan di kemudian hari untuk yang benar ikhlas berusaha.

Masih tak tahu siapa boleh hantar ke KLIA dan kutip aku di KLIA2 nanti ni. Kawan-kawan kegemaran ada hal lain. Keluarga pula semua di Kelantan.

Pfft. Lonely nya.

Tubuh aku masih penat dek perjalanan pergi balik Labuan untuk mesyuarat ringkas hari Rabu lepas. I need my sleep. Like seriously.


Clash of Clans dan kegemukan

Aku perasan setiap kali aku main Clash of Clans, aku akan bagitahu clan members yang aku sedang makan, baru lepas makan ataupun kejap lagi nak makan.

Lepastu mengaku diri gemuk sebabtu taknak jumpa lepak dengan diorang.

Memang pun.

6 months probation period

I should be glad it ended, no?

Heard most oil and gas company terminated their staffs with 24-hour notice.
It is that bad; I am sorry.

3 days break for the weekend since Friday is off day for Selangor. I believed I sleep for accumulated hours of a day and a half. I am such a brilliant person at procrastination and feeling depressed.

Be more grateful of your surrounding please.

Felt like my chosen circle of friends are no longer the same person they were. I must have changed too and they must felt the same about me.

Life is not all about rainbows, accept it.

Terminal Tech TTDI Jaya

Walaupun saya berhenti main Clash of Clans sejak April lagi, ipad sebenarnya retak skrin bulan Mei lalu. Tapi akaun Clash of Clans masih aktif. My clan leader doesn't want me to quit hence been using the account on behalf. I don't know how he manage two big accounts at a time. But thank you :) even if he didn't play or manage it I also don't know. Hahaha.

Though I doubt my skill if I were to continue playing. Gulp.

Berbalik kepada ipad yang baru siap tukar skrin ni. 

If you want to repair your gadgets please go to Terminal Tech, TTDI Jaya. Lokasi dia tingkat atas Mak Uda, TTDI Jaya. Both can be googled and you'll get the directions.

Harga tukar skrin ipad mini ni ialah RM350, took around 2 weeks untuk baiki dan buat testing etcetera. I asked around before dan ada kedai yang letak harga RM450 so dah tak fikir panjang terus ke sini. Kalau buat temujanji, ada percent discount :) anything just refer their FB.

Terminal Tech gave me 3 months warranty should my ipad screen didn't function as it supposed. Starts from today, 8th December 2015.

Now I cannot remember what I use my ipad for before other than play Clash of Clans. But I guess that's all I want to say. My longing towards Clash of Clans and the good service received from the gadget repair shop, Terminal Tech, TTDI Jaya.

My friends also went here; a friend changed his iphone 5s battery, another friend repaired her iphone 5 malfunction problem. Jadi kalau ada masalah, sila lah ke kedai ini. Level atas sekali ada gym untuk bakar kalori bina otot. Level bawah ada Restoran Mak Uda boleh lepak makan. Level yang sama ada surau yang sangat lapang untuk lelaki dan perempuan solat. Kemudahan bilik air juga ada di Mak Uda. Sebut pasal Mak Uda, makan pagi nasi dagang kat sini sangat puas hati. Kalau saya ulas lebih lagi, macam nak iklankan TTDI Jaya pula, hahaha. Psst, ada kedai nasi Kak Wok berdekatan. 

Bukti ipad dah berfungsi ialah saya menaip entri ini dengan relaks. Haha. Saja nak merasa taip entri pakai ipad balik. Baru-lah santai menaip sambil baring. Santai tak santai dah panjang pula.

Thanks thanks!

Dabedibedu

Ada rajuk yang aku pendam. Simpan dalam sini (tunjuk hati).
Simpan sekejap. Simpan sikit-sikit tak mengapa.

Tapi kalau dah lama dan bertambah begini;
 pedih juga.

Sendiri menangis sendiri pujuk sajalah.

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I find that I get anxious even around people I'm familiar with these days.

Life is okay. Except that I'm counting my money. That's a harsh life to someone who doesn't want money to be a problem.

In order to feel less pressure about working, I took my job less seriously. Sounds like the only option I have at the moment and yeah finding myself hard to wake up in the morning.

Discussing about life plan with the girls; suddenly two of them mentioned about how mature I have become. Surprisingly to them I don't sound rational when I raged about resigning last September. Haha.

I still believe that everybody should act the way they want. As long as they're kind to one another. If you choose a different path, then just do it. I am collecting my courage and well, funds to do so.

Perhaps sharing my backup plan in details to people around me won't put me in a reasonable category, hence I keep that to myself.

Well, I only have myself after all :)

Hello December. Please be great.