Kemurungan

Ya, murung. Murung tahap tak boleh wujud perasaan kecewa sikitpun, boleh terus nangis teruk. 

I have defended and secured the heart too much for quite a long time. Perhaps year 2014 is made special for me to express out all those pain I have endured, so God gave me tests from time to time and let me cry wholeheartedly this time.

And in this case, though I have mentioned 'time' a few times, no. Time doesn't heal.

Ada perkara lain yang membebankan. Setiap kali diuji kecil, aku yang sedang penat tak mampu membendung perasaan tersebut elok. Masalah ini dari aku sendiri. Tak pernah salah orang sekeliling. Aku yang sepatutnya boleh kawal segala apa tentang diri sendiri.

And these days I hate myself for turning into this kind of being.

4 comments:

aku said...

Aku tengah rasa apa kau rasa sekarang. Kemurungan memang sakit. Tambah sakit bila kau jenis orang yang memendam. Tau tau air mata berderai setiap malam.

: said...

Hati biskut - @kekabu

Pisey said...

Kan? I guess everybody gets to this phase from time to time. Just had to get up and kill it everytime too. Take care to you too.

Pisey said...

Biskut meri.