When I sleep all day

I just let the siblings or the parent thought of that as my habit of laziness. Because once I am recharged, you can really count on me on a lot of things. 

Not that I maintain to be manusia tak guna selamanya.

I am sorry you guys cannot understand much about what I'm dealing with. It hurts too much trying to explain when you don't really listen. 

You were just there to give advices. 

I don't need advices, I just need some reassurances that I can take all the time in the world and disappear for a while or two and you'll love me nonetheless. A support system. Just be there. Wait for me. I'll be home. And for that, even without a good base of knowing what I am facing, even when labeled as the sister who sleeps a lot, thank you for always turning out the same at loving me. It is enough and I am grateful for this.

I don't know whether hectic-ness in an awesome environment is going to kill me or heal me. But I am willing to try it. Dear God please grant me this.

I can't die yet. There're so much to discover and experience. Chances to grab. Opportunities to catch. I want a big fat cat I can call my own on my bed every morning and night. Yeah let's just focus on this one first.

This anxiety is killing me. But I'll be okay. I had to because I want to. Why do I want it? Because it's killing me and there's so much to learn ahead. I have to keep going. 
Thank you.

Ramadhan Kareem

Dear God, hold my hand.

Dear angels, wake me up gently.

Dear family, thank you for this ties. You guys are the best support system I could ask for. Plus some friends who understands how I function and stay.

Count your blessings. Fight harder.

Kita semua cuma hamba yang berkali-kali diberi peluang untuk menikmati apa yang dihidangkanNya. Stay calm. 

Unwanted

The worst feeling ever.

Fuck you.

I guess bitches are all just scared people putting on too much of defense mechanism. Assholes too. That's just how they function.

Keep respecting people who deserve your respect.

Be kind and kinder.

Kinder bueno would definitely calm me right now.

Carousell and scammers

I had to letgo a large amount of my favourite things. But well, I guess items can be replaced once I get to be stable again. 

Come and browse what I'll selling here. I can assure you everything is genuine. Either bought in boutiques or outlets. Some are from my humble collections (yet to be uploaded) and some are bought with the idea of selling back then.

Check it out: carousell.com/annayaacob

If after browsing you happened to fall into buying from somebody else, just keep in mind that there are a lot of scammers as buyers and sellers. Found two scamming buyers in a week of being on Carousell. Just be carefull and take your time. Ask for opinions. Check out their accounts and trust your instinct.

Have fun shopping and perhaps start selling your items too!

Invisible

Seems like everything is changing. I'm not okay with it but I guess I'll be fine.

If this is for the better I just have to cope with it.

*putting on invisibility cloak over myself*