Aku demam ni. Not a good day to celebrate a new age (I wonder if aging should be celebrated these days). Dari kecil sampai besar aku masih tak tahan panas. Affected so bad pula tu.
Aku nak ambil cuti sakit pun tak sampai hati sebab bulan lepas dan dua hari aku tak dapat hadir sebab sakit perut. Jadi aku gagahkan diri juga gi kerja semalam. Lepastu tiba-tiba rasa nak pitam dan terpaksa pergi duduk padan muka.
Kalau dulu selalu rasa stress sebab terpaksa mengikut kemahuan orang lain dan mengorbankan diri, sekarang aku cuba mengatur satu persatu langkah baru untuk mencipta hidup yang aku mahu. But I'm not winning yet. It's so hard. Tapi ia pilihan sendiri yang selesa jadi aku bersyukur untuk kemampuan ini.
Tipulah kalau cakap aku tak perlukan duit. I need a lot of it untuk memuaskan kemahuan-kemahuan dan mengisi setiap keperluan yang ada. Aku jarang ada perasaan cemburu dengan pasangan yang bahagia, tapi dengan mereka yang mempunyai kerjaya yang bagus. They seems to know what they're doing. I'm jelly melly. Especially those who chose their passion as a living and good at it. That's just wow!
I bet I won't be thinking too serious on my own anymore if I be getting a life partner soon. At least this heaviness can be lifted a little. It's just a quick guess, not a researched statement.
Not that I'm looking seriously at the mo. I just need one. That's all I know.
Happy birthday dear self. Although people still thought you're just 22 or 24, you know who you are so act like one. I mean not act old, just be a little more serious about life will you? I've never been this old so how to know how to act? Ha!
Let's eat cake. And that great expensive coffee you love.
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