everyday

i dream of something special. something extraordinary to popped out from somewhere; even maybe out of universe with no logical explanation to surprise me and trigger my brain cell and give me the simplest idea to go on with life.

to have a purpose of doing so.
i open my eyes. i stare at the ceiling. i took a shower. i comb my hair. i dress up. i walk. i run. i eat. i sleep. i play. i join. i watch.

every single day. we tend to play the same role. or maybe there are little changes as in your position at works, the progress in the family, or happening around friends.

sometimes, we choose to be alone.
sometimes, we want to be hugged.
sometimes, we try reach out our hand.
sometimes, there's no one for us.

and then we start to ponder;
about the existence,
whether something is missing,
listening to the sound of serenade at night,
got speechless at times,
expressing things out of control,
planning life out of tune and all.

blah.
the conclusion?

we will still wonder;
wander all around.

life goes on;
until the day we die.

sebenarnya aku clueless.
tak tahu nak cakap apa.
tapi there's something deep inside boiling to escape;
but then,
aku tak mampu nak ceritakan;
sakit.