I think about my prince charming too.
Stay calm.
Kalau aku banyak duit sekarang ni
Memang aku bayar pakej data internet bulanan punya.
Tak tipu.
Kehidupan, cepatlah stabil. Aku tak sabar nak senyum lama ni.
Tak tipu.
Kehidupan, cepatlah stabil. Aku tak sabar nak senyum lama ni.
I treat everyone I know as my bestfriend
Few days ago, a friend asked me. Is there anyone that I consider as my bestest friend that I have known for years since school or from childhood.
I was silence for a while, taken aback. My mind was busy rummaging for the perfect person to fit the criteria but my heart was at a calm pace.
I told her I have none. I told her I shut myself from people I know from time to time when I change my place of study etcetera. Especially after mom passed away. I shut myself from everyone.
Minutes after that, I added to her proudly that many friends around me consider me as their bestfriends. And well I did too. So I said to her that I can conclude that I have more than a bestfriend that I could count on whenever needed. And they perfectly knew from the depth that they won't lose me no matter what happen.
Something I would like to brag about myself. Spend a total of calculated moments for more than three days with me, you won't forget me for the rest of your life.
Ehem.
Unless you're just too full of yourself that you can't see how awesome I am as a friend. Yeah, I am that awesome kind of person. No lie.
I was silence for a while, taken aback. My mind was busy rummaging for the perfect person to fit the criteria but my heart was at a calm pace.
I told her I have none. I told her I shut myself from people I know from time to time when I change my place of study etcetera. Especially after mom passed away. I shut myself from everyone.
Minutes after that, I added to her proudly that many friends around me consider me as their bestfriends. And well I did too. So I said to her that I can conclude that I have more than a bestfriend that I could count on whenever needed. And they perfectly knew from the depth that they won't lose me no matter what happen.
Something I would like to brag about myself. Spend a total of calculated moments for more than three days with me, you won't forget me for the rest of your life.
Ehem.
Unless you're just too full of yourself that you can't see how awesome I am as a friend. Yeah, I am that awesome kind of person. No lie.
Kelantan, PTD M41, Malaysia dan Pilihan Raya ke-13
Hujan hari-hari. Hampir setiap masa memang lembap. Aku pun jadi lembab je.
Sabtu baru lepas duduki ujian untuk kemasukan PTD M41. Bahagian A aku memang sedia peluru banyak untuk tujuan tembak-tembak. Harapnya kena lah sasaran. Bahagian B aku rasa dapat seratus. Was expecting a tougher ones. Esei bahasa aku jawab pasal Gagasan 1Malaysia, quite to my own surprise aku pergi pilih jawab soalan satu tu. Kes soalan dua dan tiga macam tak ada benda aku nak hurai. While for the english essay pun aku jawab soalan satu, faktor-faktor yang menyumbang kepada kepuashatian dalam bekerja (read: job satisfaction).
Oke bukan nak cerita pasal exam PTD M41 ni pun sebenarnya.
Bergolek di rumah kat Kelantan ni, kalau dibuat perbandingan dengan mana-mana tempat lain sikitpun tak boleh nak lawan. Rabu ni dah kena ke Bangi semula ada hal. Hal peribadi, hal kawan dan hal kahwin kawan. Akan pulang lagi untuk sesi mengundi buat pertama kalinya. Aku harap keadaan kat sini sama saja. Aku harap tak ada korupsi. Aku harap yang baik-baik berlaku, yang berkat-berkat. Aku tak mahu negeri ni jadi lain yang lain macam.
Untuk negara, tak kira lah di bawah pemerintahan sesiapa pun. If you can do better, if you can make better, do it and prove to us that you're capable of doing it well as promised. As a leader, memang banyak dugaan. Tapi kalau kau ada iman, kau percaya Tuhan, kau betul perjuangkan hak rakyat, kau akan terus saja di jalan yang benar. Mana-mana agama pun akan suruh berbuat kebaikan. Duit bukan segalanya. Duit itu cuma nafsu. If you can't cope with the money, sir; bagi saja kat aku. I'll use it wisely.
Kalau kau kata kau cuma manusia, buat kesilapan itu lumrah pergi matilah. Kalau tak boleh dan tak mampu kawal diri, jangan sibuk nak jadi pemimpin. Dosa jadi pemimpin yang berbuat salah pun lebih berganda besar dari jadi rakyat yang suka mencarut, kau patut tahu.
Mungkin betul agenda exam PTD M41 ni dia buka peluang kepada sesiapa saja yang memohon nak suruh ramai lebih patriotik bila ambil tahu pasal sejarah, dasar-dasar negara, sistem pentadbiran dan segala isu semasa yang timbul. Mungkin lah.
Sebab aku rasa lebih patriotik than ever lepas khatam pelbagai bacaan dalam masa dua hari. SPA please take note. Jangan nak gila sangat panggil orang suruh jawab ujian tapi surat, emel, SMS cuma dapat dua hari sebelum.
Kalau sebuah suruhanjaya pun tak boleh nak buat kerja hebahkan informasi dengan baik dengan teknologi yang ada, macam mana dengan badan-badan yang lain? Macam mana nak bentuk kerajaan yang bagus?
Aku bukan kutuk organisasi sangat, tapi there must be something wrong dengan manusia-manusia yang terlibat. Fikirlah sikit bila dah jadi yang terpilih pikul tanggungjawab baik-baik. Perangai macam orang marketing Naza Tutti Frutti Malaysia. Kalau marketing people teruk, aku salahkan bos atas sebab tak care isu-isu klien yang timbul. It's the leader.
Pilihanraya ke13 dah jadi topik hot stuff. Kerajaan kutuk pembangkang. Pembangkang kutuk kerajaan. Macam-macam sangat aku rasa aku meninggi diri cakap kat diri aku bijak bila both sides saling bertelagah. Sorang menyalak sorang menguak. Bodoh lawan lemau. Aku cuma melihat kerana aku tak mahu tuding jari kat diri sendiri cakap haha kau pun bodoh.
I am no one. Just a citizen yang ilmu belum cukup. Selaku rakyat aku akui aku belum matang sepenuhnya.
Macam aku sekarang ni menganggur, jadi aku selfish jaga diri sendiri sorang pun takpa. Tangggungjawab aku ialah jaga diri sendiri.
Tapi juara bodoh harini aku kasi kat orang yang berhutang dengan aku hampir 5tahun dan belum diselesaikan walaupun dimaterai pelbagai kata. Janji tak ditepati langsung. Sikitpun tak boleh pimpin kerajaan atau mana-mana parti.
Tak sangka aku malas-malas lembab dalam keadaan lembap ni boleh menaip sebegini panjang. Aku ni power sebenarnya. Saja je sekali sekala baru tunjuk skill. Baru padu.
Sekian.
Sabtu baru lepas duduki ujian untuk kemasukan PTD M41. Bahagian A aku memang sedia peluru banyak untuk tujuan tembak-tembak. Harapnya kena lah sasaran. Bahagian B aku rasa dapat seratus. Was expecting a tougher ones. Esei bahasa aku jawab pasal Gagasan 1Malaysia, quite to my own surprise aku pergi pilih jawab soalan satu tu. Kes soalan dua dan tiga macam tak ada benda aku nak hurai. While for the english essay pun aku jawab soalan satu, faktor-faktor yang menyumbang kepada kepuashatian dalam bekerja (read: job satisfaction).
Oke bukan nak cerita pasal exam PTD M41 ni pun sebenarnya.
Bergolek di rumah kat Kelantan ni, kalau dibuat perbandingan dengan mana-mana tempat lain sikitpun tak boleh nak lawan. Rabu ni dah kena ke Bangi semula ada hal. Hal peribadi, hal kawan dan hal kahwin kawan. Akan pulang lagi untuk sesi mengundi buat pertama kalinya. Aku harap keadaan kat sini sama saja. Aku harap tak ada korupsi. Aku harap yang baik-baik berlaku, yang berkat-berkat. Aku tak mahu negeri ni jadi lain yang lain macam.
Untuk negara, tak kira lah di bawah pemerintahan sesiapa pun. If you can do better, if you can make better, do it and prove to us that you're capable of doing it well as promised. As a leader, memang banyak dugaan. Tapi kalau kau ada iman, kau percaya Tuhan, kau betul perjuangkan hak rakyat, kau akan terus saja di jalan yang benar. Mana-mana agama pun akan suruh berbuat kebaikan. Duit bukan segalanya. Duit itu cuma nafsu. If you can't cope with the money, sir; bagi saja kat aku. I'll use it wisely.
Kalau kau kata kau cuma manusia, buat kesilapan itu lumrah pergi matilah. Kalau tak boleh dan tak mampu kawal diri, jangan sibuk nak jadi pemimpin. Dosa jadi pemimpin yang berbuat salah pun lebih berganda besar dari jadi rakyat yang suka mencarut, kau patut tahu.
Mungkin betul agenda exam PTD M41 ni dia buka peluang kepada sesiapa saja yang memohon nak suruh ramai lebih patriotik bila ambil tahu pasal sejarah, dasar-dasar negara, sistem pentadbiran dan segala isu semasa yang timbul. Mungkin lah.
Sebab aku rasa lebih patriotik than ever lepas khatam pelbagai bacaan dalam masa dua hari. SPA please take note. Jangan nak gila sangat panggil orang suruh jawab ujian tapi surat, emel, SMS cuma dapat dua hari sebelum.
Kalau sebuah suruhanjaya pun tak boleh nak buat kerja hebahkan informasi dengan baik dengan teknologi yang ada, macam mana dengan badan-badan yang lain? Macam mana nak bentuk kerajaan yang bagus?
Aku bukan kutuk organisasi sangat, tapi there must be something wrong dengan manusia-manusia yang terlibat. Fikirlah sikit bila dah jadi yang terpilih pikul tanggungjawab baik-baik. Perangai macam orang marketing Naza Tutti Frutti Malaysia. Kalau marketing people teruk, aku salahkan bos atas sebab tak care isu-isu klien yang timbul. It's the leader.
Pilihanraya ke13 dah jadi topik hot stuff. Kerajaan kutuk pembangkang. Pembangkang kutuk kerajaan. Macam-macam sangat aku rasa aku meninggi diri cakap kat diri aku bijak bila both sides saling bertelagah. Sorang menyalak sorang menguak. Bodoh lawan lemau. Aku cuma melihat kerana aku tak mahu tuding jari kat diri sendiri cakap haha kau pun bodoh.
I am no one. Just a citizen yang ilmu belum cukup. Selaku rakyat aku akui aku belum matang sepenuhnya.
Macam aku sekarang ni menganggur, jadi aku selfish jaga diri sendiri sorang pun takpa. Tangggungjawab aku ialah jaga diri sendiri.
Tapi juara bodoh harini aku kasi kat orang yang berhutang dengan aku hampir 5tahun dan belum diselesaikan walaupun dimaterai pelbagai kata. Janji tak ditepati langsung. Sikitpun tak boleh pimpin kerajaan atau mana-mana parti.
Tak sangka aku malas-malas lembab dalam keadaan lembap ni boleh menaip sebegini panjang. Aku ni power sebenarnya. Saja je sekali sekala baru tunjuk skill. Baru padu.
Sekian.
Pulang ke gagang
Kawan-kawan, doakan aku selamat naik bas malam ni. Dah lama betul ni tak naik bas untuk balik kampung macam ni. Feel dia lain macam sikit.
Lain macam sikit punya feel juga ada la.
Moga selamat sampai ke pelukan bantal golek dalam bilik merah jambu.
Amin.
Lain macam sikit punya feel juga ada la.
Moga selamat sampai ke pelukan bantal golek dalam bilik merah jambu.
Amin.
Missing a beat
I miss my violin.
I miss listening to the guys jamming sessions.
I miss me trying to play the guitar.
I miss the good old days when I could do a complete song with just a recorder.
I miss me.
I miss listening to the guys jamming sessions.
I miss me trying to play the guitar.
I miss the good old days when I could do a complete song with just a recorder.
I miss me.
I can't draw, so I sing
Itu Bo cakap.
So since I don't have a job yet, I'm going to pursue my studies and chase a new dream.
This is going to be a new path, new experience.
I think I'm ready.
Well, yeah I'm ready.
Gulp.
Move your fat ass and get going, lady!
Though kakak asked me to apply for jobs and studies at the same time, see which is gonna come my way, I find it pretty hard to do so. It's like giving hope to many people, though you know from the start that you're going to marry just one.
Ha ha. That sounds pretty wrong to be related to this topic.
Yeah, yeah. I think a lot. But this is me. Jumble of thoughts swirling and crammed in my mind.
Few of my friends are already married and many are going that way too. I'm filled with unexpected invitations. Happy for them.
My prince charming is still busy with the white horse, not knowing which route to take. No worries, I'm good. When the time comes, he'll come.
I have just initiated my application for the courses and universities. It's quite late, I know.
This is all new. And new can be pretty scary.
I'm scared.
Fuhh fuhh.
This is the starting line. I'm just waiting for the gunshot to start running.
So since I don't have a job yet, I'm going to pursue my studies and chase a new dream.
This is going to be a new path, new experience.
I think I'm ready.
Well, yeah I'm ready.
Gulp.
Move your fat ass and get going, lady!
Though kakak asked me to apply for jobs and studies at the same time, see which is gonna come my way, I find it pretty hard to do so. It's like giving hope to many people, though you know from the start that you're going to marry just one.
Ha ha. That sounds pretty wrong to be related to this topic.
Yeah, yeah. I think a lot. But this is me. Jumble of thoughts swirling and crammed in my mind.
Few of my friends are already married and many are going that way too. I'm filled with unexpected invitations. Happy for them.
My prince charming is still busy with the white horse, not knowing which route to take. No worries, I'm good. When the time comes, he'll come.
I have just initiated my application for the courses and universities. It's quite late, I know.
This is all new. And new can be pretty scary.
I'm scared.
Fuhh fuhh.
This is the starting line. I'm just waiting for the gunshot to start running.
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